My sixteenth birthday I can honestly say I don’t remember it. I can say it was a drunken haze. I’m pretty sure I had fun? Nobody told me different.
Now, on the other hand I would not want to be sixteen again nowadays for nothing! The thought horrified me! I mean really I can’t even imagine being that age in this world today!
But, for shits and giggles I would rent out the local pool and have a pool party! And probably do whatever I did back then. Why? Because it is part of my past. Why change it?
Yesterday happened like every year since we were young. Yesterday was sad like it always is since you have been gone. I am doing good in my life and I know you sending your beautiful brother to me at the exact moment you did lastnight reminds me your still with me. I have pictures of you now. I love them! I sent them to each boy. They knew it was your birthday yesterday too. They each morn the loss of you differently. One of them said yesterday to his wife. My uncle taught me more about being a man than anyone else in my life. I know you heard that and smiled. I’m so glad for the time you spent with my kids. I watch your oldest child and grandbaby grow via pictures online. You are proud I feel it. Now, your brother, how amazing he is raising your baby!? He has invited me to go see them! He is a great man and I now know why you are so close with him. Thank you for placing him in my life. You are just like him! Its funny really. Well, I love you my dear friend! Until the wheels fall off and the creagers crack……..
Well, I haven’t been with my husband in 3 years but have.been intimate during this time. I don’t want to be with him. But, he moved in with a old girlfriend and it hurts! I’m not sure how to feel or get.over this. I have been with him since I was 15 years old. We have been married 25 yrs now. Apart 3 of those. But, my problem is I love him. I haven’t slept with anyone else. But, I did date other people. I found myself still loving him. I wanted us to work. To much water under the bridge. How can I make the hurt go away and the love?