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Daily post/sad but true

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Well, I have been friends with this person since middle school and he is now dead. I miss him dearly. He always told me how things were. I wore my feelings on my shoulders so, he was extra harsh in his opinions in my eyes. This daily post reminded me of the time he told me how I was REALLY!

It was a normal conversation we were having. We both came from a shady background.  I always considered myself as being an”ethical” drug addict. I am clean and sober now. But, that’s a story for another day. Anyway, to be a drug addict you must do something’s that are not so nice in order to get your next fix. The old saying goes “You got to do one of three things to feed your addiction, wheel, deal, or steal.” Sad but true that is how it is.
Now, that sets you with a brief synopsis on my world in my eyes at the topic of what it takes to be an addict. I proclaimed to my friend this about myself. I felt I was an ethical drug addict! After all, in my blurred vision, I didn’t steal, I didn’t barter or trade goods or services for drugs, so I wasn’t a wheeler. And I didn’t deal. (At that point in my addiction I hadn’t done any of that)
I got my drugs with money or for free. Now, my friend says to me.”SHIT, I HAVE WATCHED YOU TAKE A PERSONS LAST DOLLAR AND THEY GIVE IT TO YOU WILLINGLY AND THANK YOU FOR TAKING IT. LEAVING THEM WITH NOTHING.”(he meant metaphorically)  In other words I was a con! He said I used my charm to get people to do what I wanted. He said I used people! Oh my gosh was I applaud!  He was telling me like it was though. We were in our teens during this conversation and I guess I felt I was really being an addict that had morals and scruples. Wow, I was naive. 
Later on in my addition I did end up doing all three of those things in one form or another. My morals and values were gone!
I’m glad to say my life is finally different and drug free. However,  I have always remembered his words so I recognize that character flaw popping up in my new life.
My friend called it as he saw it. Sad but true it was………

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Daily prompt/the cat says meow

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/17/daily-prompt-perspective-2/

My name is Bella the mini yorkie that lives in the house on the corner. The one with the crazy lady that talks to herself and sings aloud all the time. She runs around in that brightly colored moomoo!
Well, let me tell you she loves and cares for me so good. Even when she has very little to eat she makes sure I have a meal and a treat. She is a giver that one! When she scratches my behind, just above my tale I shake my leg for her and she delights me with a smile and that full belly laugh of hers.
She talks to herself as I said. And, she talks to me. Often she says how much she misses having her family all together again. Her son’s are all grown up with lives of their own. Her grandbaby makes her as happy as I do if not more. If only she could see her more. She talks about maybe getting us a man around the house.  I bark at her when she talks non sense! My master is lonely but each day is better for her I can tell.
Often she looks in the mirror and says she looks like a dog!? This I don’t understand I am a dog. I’m beautiful and I know it. I wished I could tell her how pretty she is. I bark when she talks bad about herself. Maybe, just maybe, someday she will see how perfect she is like I ser her. Until then I will be here with her through the ups and downs. Because, to me she is perfect.

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