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Improving my self image

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I have very low self esteem and I work on the way I see myself as much as I can. I am by no means a raving beauty. But, I am pretty to me. I took this photo without make up and I hadn’t brushed my hair since that morning.  Just el natural! If I could have taken a full body shot I would have. It would show a very large woman. My weight is a struggle. But, for now I am embracing my beauty as a whole. Even a woman that is by all the world’s definition that is obese can be sexy, beautiful, and pleasing to look at. Its all in the attitude. You act ugly you are ugly. How you see yourself is how others will see you too!
So, this is me…….rather cute huh? Lol

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Me and my blog

Ok, I was in a rut for a month or so. As far as my blog I neglected it. You see, I felt I was giving minimal posts compared to what I truly am capable of. Let me explain. I blog from my smart phone. So, my posts are not very meaty! Then someone said to me that my blog can be just short stories and such. So, unless I go to the local library I will be producing short but sweet posts.

Briefly why I don’t have a computer is because I left my husband of 25 years in June 2012. I was allowed my clothes. No pictures of my kids when they were babies or nothing. Since then I now own my brand new couch, recliner, flat screen, dishes, and bed. Oh, and I live in a house that is mine. I don’t own it I rent but it is mine! I started mind you with a garbage bag of clothes! So, maybe someday I will get a computer but it’s not a priority for now. But, my blog, my means of self expression is.

The other thing I feel I need to put out there in order for you all to understand me is I am a victim of molestation, abuse, mental and physical illnesses, and I am a recovered addict. I tell you all this not for pity just for you to be able to understand some of my posts. All the past trauma I have suffered at my own hands and the hands of others doesn’t make up who I am today.  THOSE ISSUES I HAVE DEALT WITH!

Now, me today, wow what a difference! I walk with my head up and a smile on my face. This process of finding myself has been a long one! I am not done by no means. I will never be done. I change every single day. I am going to evolve into the person I know now I am. And let me tell you she is someone you want to connect with in person and through my posts. I look toward to reading all your blogs too! If you chose to follow me I chose to follow you too!

Happy blogging!

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Letter to self

Dear Annette,

Hello old friend. I decided that it was time I told you how I really feel about you. I hope you can take all I have to say. It is not going to be all bad but I feel it’s time someone called you up on you progress on your process of self improvement. So, put your big girl panties and read on.
First, you know you are still letting your old friends hang around. You know who they are exactly!  Their names are self pity, low self esteem, self doubt, loathing, sadness, pain, heartbreak, broken, and misery. Those friends I see hanging around you still. We talked about this and there is no room or time to entertain them in your new life! I guess you need to go back to putting the alarm on at all times so these intruders stay away from you. Use your words Annette to keep them away. Remember the words like, I am worth it, I love myself, I am beautiful, happiness is obtainable, kindness, grateful, breathe, relax, prayer, meditation, are all words those old friends of yours hate.
Now, you have improved a lot! You need to remember how you use to walk with your head down? You cried all the time until you became a catatonic robot. Gosh, those drug induced stupors you lived in almost brought you to death more than once. Not many people walk away from the traumatic things you have. Wow, you are a miracle! That’s why I writing you. The past few weeks have been rough on you. Barely getting out of bed! I’m so afraid of loosing you. Your journey began in June 2012. Celebrate how far you have came my beautiful friend. Continue healing mentally and take better care of your physical self also. I know your pain is real. Don’t accept that you have to remain that way. Yes, your body is facing illnesses that cause you to become depressed and sad. Keep seeing your doctor and try new methods of healing or easing the pain. Get back to eating right too. Remove the word fat from your mind. Speaking of your mind. Will you really try to start each day with prayer, meditation, and positive affirmations. When you were religiously starting your day that way you were happy everyday.
I’m just asking you to look at you and how far you have come and get out of your rut. Your goals and dreams are happening.  Always remember where you came from but keep those dear old friends away.
I’m very proud of you and love you with all my heart. Remember that!

Always yours,
Annette

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Daily post/treat

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/10/31/daily-prompt-treat/

It is Halloween again and I am sitting at my blog awaiting my trick or treater’s. My bowl is huge filled with treats like love for the little orphaned child that may stop by. I have some happiness for the broken abused woman that just may knock at my blogs door. You may even know her? Compassion I have a lot of that in my bowl. I know the elderly man that lives alone in blog # 3, the one that served in the war? Haven’t you seen him walking alone? I have a bit of encouragement for that college student that is far from home and is frazzled from work and school.
The truth is me and my blog have so many treats in our bowl you are sure to get the one the tastes perfectly when you bite into it. You shall be full after knocking on my blog’s door this Halloween.

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Watch “Queen – ‘Fat Bottomed Girls’ (Live At The Bowl)” on YouTube

This song makes me enjoy my outer beauty as well as my inner beauty. I celebrate my curves with this song! I always dance when I hear it. Plus, in general I like Queen and other hit songs they did when I was a teen!
So, here’s to my curves!

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Daily prompt/super sensitive

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/16/daily-prompt-sensitive/

If I could decrease a sense it would be taste for sure. I’m over weight and suffer from mental and physical problems because of it. Maybe, if food didn’t taste so good I would eat less and loose some weight.
I would increase my sight! My vision is so poor I would love to read more, drive better, and really see the world in a different light.

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Daily prompt/the cat says meow

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/17/daily-prompt-perspective-2/

My name is Bella the mini yorkie that lives in the house on the corner. The one with the crazy lady that talks to herself and sings aloud all the time. She runs around in that brightly colored moomoo!
Well, let me tell you she loves and cares for me so good. Even when she has very little to eat she makes sure I have a meal and a treat. She is a giver that one! When she scratches my behind, just above my tale I shake my leg for her and she delights me with a smile and that full belly laugh of hers.
She talks to herself as I said. And, she talks to me. Often she says how much she misses having her family all together again. Her son’s are all grown up with lives of their own. Her grandbaby makes her as happy as I do if not more. If only she could see her more. She talks about maybe getting us a man around the house.  I bark at her when she talks non sense! My master is lonely but each day is better for her I can tell.
Often she looks in the mirror and says she looks like a dog!? This I don’t understand I am a dog. I’m beautiful and I know it. I wished I could tell her how pretty she is. I bark when she talks bad about herself. Maybe, just maybe, someday she will see how perfect she is like I ser her. Until then I will be here with her through the ups and downs. Because, to me she is perfect.

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