Taking care of myself

I needed to have a goal added to this blogging and my living life on life’s terms. So, I added a new category and titled my first post Taking care of myself. I have been going through a lot. I realized that I have let myself totally go! Several factors played into this and they are facts like going through a separation after 25 years of marriage, my children growing up and making choices of their own, feeling not needed by them anymore, drama that comes with having to make ends meet financially and they don’t, wanting everyone in your entire family to get along at every moment, just plain worrying about everyone and everything else besides myself and my mental and physical health and well-being.

You see, I thought that in my 40’s I would be settled with my husband in 2 recliners watching TV or something silly like that. It’s funny I never saw me smiling in this visualization. But, I visualized contentment. Well, life and a higher power had other things in mind for me.

So, here I sit with a choice to make. Change now that the door is open and I can smell the sense of the many choices I can make on my very own. I have slowly let myself go and waited silently still not ready to dip my toe completely into the great lake of change. Oh, don’t get me wrong I made a couple of pretty major changes. I moved from the pacific coast all the way to southern USA! I became clean and sober. I got the wants! I didn’t know for what. I don’t think I still do exactly. But, I am learning to grown and reinvent yourself. While still living life on life’s terms and everything that comes along with that is a process. It has begun this process I feel the changes. Taking care of myself is my first topic of importance.  I will be resting for a bit because I need to. I have to stay away from social media and people and just be alone.

If you have some suggestions on stuff like meditation for dummies, or eating well on a budget of a poper, letting your grown children make stupid choices they will live to regret and shutting your mouth about it all, menopause oh boy menopause. Keep in mind I am going to become very informed on issues that will make myself better but I can’t understand what I read unless it is in laymen’s terms. I have a high school education that is very old now. I want to know what helped you. If you would like to share.

Bye bye for now just a day maybe two……

Daily prompt/unconventional love

When I read the daily prompt today I darn near barffed! I have had some horrible days lately and I have let my life be led by emotions. Someone said to me that emotions can take over your rationality. Anyway, my living life on life’s terms is a work in progress for darn sure! But, back to the topic at hand. I didn’t want to write about any kind of love at all period. When my emotions get the best of me I get very stubborn! In spite of myself I did write on each topic. When I read this one I inhaled deeply and thought more love? My next thought was what unconventional love is. I had to look it up just to make sure I had a full understanding of it. Here is what I found.

The definition of unconventional is someone or something that deviates from the norm or accepted standard.

(adjective)

I have a very unconventional love of my life! I love and adore everything and anything the color orange! It can be any and all shades of orange too! I look at orange things and smile. Odd I have been told yes it is. When people use to get me gifts it was something orange. I collected all things orange at one point in time. I am fixing to finally get a place of my own. It goes without saying most of the decor if not all will be orange. Someone once asked me why I liked orange so much. My reply is this it is happy and bright just like I want my life. I own nothing but a iPad and a garbage bag with clothes now. I have lost all material belongings I ever had. Life on life’s terms has hit me hard. As my new begining starts the past is left behind. But, one thing I love and will carry with me forever in some form is orange. One funny family fact about my orange is that my grandmother and my oldest son’s favorite colors are orange.  The two never got to meet but we share an unconventional love for the color orange!

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Update on me

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I feel horrible today and I just want to feel better. I have caught a bug of some sorts. I am sure that will be over soon. But, some horrible things have happened to me in this past week. I usually never air my dirty laundry or try not to. I want to talk about it all I want to scream to the world what has happened and I have stressed so bad and cried non stop for 3 days…..fyi worse mother’s day ever. I have changed my life. Eventually, you will learn every dirty detail but I really wanted to talk about only upbeat happy things.  I can’t I am going to have to write about so touchy subjects. I realized that is why I was guided to this blogging thing. I am supposed to heal. I must not live in the past. I must get better or at least get some understanding and tips from others on how to deal with some things.

I am going back to bed…..read more posts later and try to do my daily prompt but I am telling ya that this girl is not feeling this topics of darn ol love this week…..lol

Daily prompt/3 people walk into a bar

Finish this sentence: 3 people walk into a bar………

All three were dressed to kill that night. It was ladies night out! Will they all get free drinks? That is the goal. They are not regulars here. Rocky came here every night of the week and had never seen them. They look like the are in the wrong place. Wow, are they coming over to talk to me? Coming, closer and closer and right pass me they go! Their asses look great in those skirts!

The bartender Billy notices them also. Great, maybe I will get some good tips. He watches as they continue on pass all the empty chairs in the place. Maybe they will start with pool? The round the corner to the bathroom right away. Several minutes later they emerge. Looking even more perfectly kept.

Thank you for letting us use your restroom. Billy smiled as there thank you. They kept walking right out of that bar. But, before they reached the door they turn and ask Rocky. “Which way is the revival for Jesus being held”? Hell, I don’t know ladies this is a bar! With a flip of their hair they turn and leave. It was the bar they needed only to pee!

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Sayings or pictures I like/how does this make you feel?

This provoked me to think about the people in my past I surrounded myself with. I am not saying they made me do the things I did but, the crowds I choose to hang with had many issues that I mimicked into my adulthood.  Today, I am surrounded by few, not many at all! But, the all encourage me on my new path in life and they believe I am and will be better.  I tend to not believe them and continue to wallow in self-pity. That’s when one of them notices and tilts me back in the right direction.

I fell in love with life again!

She took me right with her on this trip!

If there is any magic in this world...

There are many stories out there, stories that can be told, stories that can inspire people, there are stories that are funny or stories that are motivating people or simply are beautiful, but there are also stories that can’t be told, because it is impossible to express in words their significance! You keep it in your soul and treasure it!

I was planning to write a story about my race and about me, but in this short trip to the absolutely wonderful countryside village at 1000 m altitude in the Carpathian mountains, I’ve learned that there are so much more interesting things to talk and think about!

All I can say is that I FELL IN LOVE with the world again, I hopelessly fell in love with life, and I fell in love with the wonderful mountains, but most of all I fell in love with the people, the people…

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Surrender Strategies

Great tips on leading a better life

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Summer – what a great time to kick back and surrender.  The heat tends to slow everyone down a little, and with kids getting out of school this month and summer vacations around the corner, we feel a natural draw to let go and just be.  We have been taught to control the events in our lives, and certainly, managing things is a necessary part of life. Yet, do we allow time to just surrender? 

We all know that when we let go, relax and choose to surrender, we feel lighter and experience more joy in our life.  So why do we resist it? If you think of the word surrender as “letting go,” rather than giving up or admitting defeat, does it make it easier for you to accept the idea of surrendering?  In this context we build trust in ourselves and learn to let go of the…

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Rise

very very good

Poems & People

If I could rescind from what I regret
I fear there is nothing I could recall,
for when paragons opposing do collide,
kingdoms of necessity finally fall.
And those that stray farthest from the light
cast the shadows deep and tall,
yet I stood for the better of the best
and took the repute of the ones who fall.
How goodly did I feign apathy,
how hollow but rotund was my call,
and knighted was I for embracing the dark,
hearing the sound of life beyond the wall.
They say I hurt for I love to bleed
so they smile when I bleed for them all,
yet I take what they give and hide from the light
my muse this silence, my shelter this night.
But hear me, O Mortals! for the day shall come
when all your idols among all your cries
will lift not a finger for all you give

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